If you choose to believe what unbelievers write and say about the Bible, because you don't want it to be true, you're just fooling yourself, or attempting to. You're using circular reasoning.
Circular Reasoning
The Decay Constant isn’t Constant
The decay constant is a fictional contrivance necessary for the popular science (SciPop) rationalization of the geological timescale and the age of the Earth. It's critical to the SciPop claim that there's no hell.